Is it just me or the time is really flowing too fast? I can't believe we are at the fifth month of the year already. The time is much faster when you have work to do, and I do have some I can tell you :)
I miss my childhood so much... Those were the days when you didn't have to do anything but be yourself, be a child that is. You didn't have to pretend you like something everyday or do something you don't like. It is such a pity that children wish to grow up and adults wish they were children like the good old days...
I'm becoming such a melancholic these days. Must be because of spring or something...
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
what i want from life
I always thought that I didn't know what I wanted from my life. I mean I thought that it wasn't clear to me what I should do with my life. Now it's different. I think I do know what I want to be, the thing is, I don't know how to make it real. What I want to do is, I wanna be a writer or some kind of a photographer travelling the world and recording his experiences, either in photos or in writings. I want to see the beauties of the world, beautiful people and nature and man-made architectures. I'm not after much money or something, some money to continue my life is OK. Maybe it's only a dream, maybe I wouldn't like my life if it were something like that. I don't know.
There are two times when I wanted to take a photo and I regret that I didn't take it. The first time was when I saw a little girl eating a sweet corn, I had a great urge to take a photo but my camera wasn't with me. Darn I thought. The second time I wanted so much to take a photo but wasn't able to was when I was in Istanbul, I saw a pretty girl lost in thoughts looking at the display windows of a jeweller. I wanted so much to know what she was thinking. She didn't move for a few minutes, perfect time to take a photo, but I didn't have courage to take a photo of a stranger. Such a shame for me. If I had taken it I was going to show her and ask her permission to use it, anyway I'm such a coward on these things.
that's all for today,
good day everyone.
There are two times when I wanted to take a photo and I regret that I didn't take it. The first time was when I saw a little girl eating a sweet corn, I had a great urge to take a photo but my camera wasn't with me. Darn I thought. The second time I wanted so much to take a photo but wasn't able to was when I was in Istanbul, I saw a pretty girl lost in thoughts looking at the display windows of a jeweller. I wanted so much to know what she was thinking. She didn't move for a few minutes, perfect time to take a photo, but I didn't have courage to take a photo of a stranger. Such a shame for me. If I had taken it I was going to show her and ask her permission to use it, anyway I'm such a coward on these things.
that's all for today,
good day everyone.
Friday, March 03, 2006
Thursday, March 02, 2006
about love
I watched "Tiger and Snow" last week. It's a fun film about love. I really enjoyed it, I really did. The thing is, I don't believe in love :P
I think every person can fall in love with a lot of other persons under right conditions and that makes love nothing more special than other things in life. I'm not saying that I do not fall in love, I'm saying that it is not a special thing for me. When I do fall in love, I'm afraid the feeling doesn't last for long. The happiness while thinking her and the excitement of talking to her doesn't last for long, that's all. I don't know if my feelings will ever change, but this is how it is for now.
I think every person can fall in love with a lot of other persons under right conditions and that makes love nothing more special than other things in life. I'm not saying that I do not fall in love, I'm saying that it is not a special thing for me. When I do fall in love, I'm afraid the feeling doesn't last for long. The happiness while thinking her and the excitement of talking to her doesn't last for long, that's all. I don't know if my feelings will ever change, but this is how it is for now.
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
The Catcher in the Rye
Here's a passage in one of my favorite books.
"The best thing, though, in that museum was that everything always stayed right where it was. Nobody'd move. You could go there a hundred thousand times, and that Eskimo would still be just finished catching those two fish, the birds would still be on their way south, the deers would still be drinking out of that water hole, with their pretty antlers and their pretty, skinny legs, and that squaw with the naked bosom would still be weaving that same blanket. Nobody'd be different. The only thing that would be different would be you. Not that you'd be so much older or anything. It wouldn't be that, exactly. You'd just be different, that's all. You'd have an overcoat on this time. Or the kid that was your partner in line the last time had got scarlet fever and you'd have a new partner. Or you'd have a substitute taking the class, instead of Miss Aigletinger. Or you'd heard your mother and father having a terrific fight in the bathroom. Or you'd just passed by one of those puddles in the street with gasoline rainbows in them. I mean you'd be different in some way—I can't explain what I mean. And even if I could, I'm not sure I'd feel like it."
from "The Catcher in the Rye", J.D. Salinger
tayfun
"The best thing, though, in that museum was that everything always stayed right where it was. Nobody'd move. You could go there a hundred thousand times, and that Eskimo would still be just finished catching those two fish, the birds would still be on their way south, the deers would still be drinking out of that water hole, with their pretty antlers and their pretty, skinny legs, and that squaw with the naked bosom would still be weaving that same blanket. Nobody'd be different. The only thing that would be different would be you. Not that you'd be so much older or anything. It wouldn't be that, exactly. You'd just be different, that's all. You'd have an overcoat on this time. Or the kid that was your partner in line the last time had got scarlet fever and you'd have a new partner. Or you'd have a substitute taking the class, instead of Miss Aigletinger. Or you'd heard your mother and father having a terrific fight in the bathroom. Or you'd just passed by one of those puddles in the street with gasoline rainbows in them. I mean you'd be different in some way—I can't explain what I mean. And even if I could, I'm not sure I'd feel like it."
from "The Catcher in the Rye", J.D. Salinger
tayfun
Saturday, February 25, 2006
the red hunting hat
i wanna buy myself a red hunting hat. like the one Holden Caulfield wears on "the catcher in the rye".
that's all.
tayfun
that's all.
tayfun
Friday, February 24, 2006
TGIF
The weekend has come at last :)
i wasn't able to write much to my (new) blog this week cuz we were too busy designing a new project, locked in the meeting room all day. such a pity :)
One of my co-workers was in San Diego, USA last week and he took an unintentional but nice picture from a hotel room. Here it is.
i wasn't able to write much to my (new) blog this week cuz we were too busy designing a new project, locked in the meeting room all day. such a pity :)
One of my co-workers was in San Diego, USA last week and he took an unintentional but nice picture from a hotel room. Here it is.
[best viewed large, notice the untidy bed in the reflection]
Monday, February 20, 2006
The ratio between professionalism and length of definitions
One thing that hit me earlier today, the more you get professional the longer the definitions of the words you don't understand become.
Here's a definition of "archetype" (of course in the CS terminology) just to give you an idea;
Archetype: reusable, formal expression of a distinct, domain level concept such as blood pressure, physical examination, or laborotory results, expressed in the form of constraints on data whose instances conform to some reference model [Beale and Heard].
Here's a longer one of "ontology" :) from wikipedia;
Ontology: In information sciences and engineering, an ontology (instead of Ontology) is claimed to be ‘an explicit specification of conceptualization’, ‘a theory of content’, ‘a theory (a system) of concepts/vocabulary used as building blocks of information processing systems’, ‘a set of agreements about a set of concepts’, or ‘the representation of the semantics of terms and their relationships’. Also, it is interpreted as ‘the class hierarchy in object-oriented paradigm’, ‘a complete schema of the domain concepts’, ‘an entity-relationship schema with subsumption relations between concepts’. Sometimes, one can meet such definitions as ‘conceptual patterns’, ‘concept heterarchies or hierarchies’, ‘a body of conceptualizations’, ‘schemata’, or ‘metadata scheme’, ‘a common set of terms’, ‘a controlled vocabulary of terms’, ‘a representation vocabulary’, or ‘a body of knowledge’.
I really should be reading papers faster. The problem is I don't know many of the concepts described in a paper.
I think I need time...
[When I started blogging, I was pretty determined that I wouldn't be posting CS stuff, but here it is. So that should be another proof that i am a nerd]
Here's a definition of "archetype" (of course in the CS terminology) just to give you an idea;
Archetype: reusable, formal expression of a distinct, domain level concept such as blood pressure, physical examination, or laborotory results, expressed in the form of constraints on data whose instances conform to some reference model [Beale and Heard].
Here's a longer one of "ontology" :) from wikipedia;
Ontology: In information sciences and engineering, an ontology (instead of Ontology) is claimed to be ‘an explicit specification of conceptualization’, ‘a theory of content’, ‘a theory (a system) of concepts/vocabulary used as building blocks of information processing systems’, ‘a set of agreements about a set of concepts’, or ‘the representation of the semantics of terms and their relationships’. Also, it is interpreted as ‘the class hierarchy in object-oriented paradigm’, ‘a complete schema of the domain concepts’, ‘an entity-relationship schema with subsumption relations between concepts’. Sometimes, one can meet such definitions as ‘conceptual patterns’, ‘concept heterarchies or hierarchies’, ‘a body of conceptualizations’, ‘schemata’, or ‘metadata scheme’, ‘a common set of terms’, ‘a controlled vocabulary of terms’, ‘a representation vocabulary’, or ‘a body of knowledge’.
I really should be reading papers faster. The problem is I don't know many of the concepts described in a paper.
I think I need time...
[When I started blogging, I was pretty determined that I wouldn't be posting CS stuff, but here it is. So that should be another proof that i am a nerd]
Friday, February 17, 2006
work and plans and other things
hello again,
i couldn't write yesterday, i had been busy with my work and all. since i started work, i started to like my courses for better :) if you are a student you can neglect your courses and hang out with your friends but if you are working you can't just say you are not coming to work today. it will make your employer lose money and this will in turn make you lose your job. It's all part of growing up and facing responsibilities i guess... and i don't like it.
Here's my 2 year plan to get out of the loop:
i'll hang on the job i have and work hard
i'll start my masters next semester
i'll quit my job after my masters and take interrail to travel whole of the Europe on a backpack. i estimate that this will cost me around 2000 Euros, buying the ticket and a new digital camera and all other travelling costs.
this is the two years nearly over.
my next whole year will be in Cyprus, doing my mandatory military service.
what i'll do later i really do not know.
we'll see what time shows...
i couldn't write yesterday, i had been busy with my work and all. since i started work, i started to like my courses for better :) if you are a student you can neglect your courses and hang out with your friends but if you are working you can't just say you are not coming to work today. it will make your employer lose money and this will in turn make you lose your job. It's all part of growing up and facing responsibilities i guess... and i don't like it.
Here's my 2 year plan to get out of the loop:
i'll hang on the job i have and work hard
i'll start my masters next semester
i'll quit my job after my masters and take interrail to travel whole of the Europe on a backpack. i estimate that this will cost me around 2000 Euros, buying the ticket and a new digital camera and all other travelling costs.
this is the two years nearly over.
my next whole year will be in Cyprus, doing my mandatory military service.
what i'll do later i really do not know.
we'll see what time shows...
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Pentagon + Internet
Can't believe my 3rd post is a political one :P
The subject is about a news article featured on the BBC website.
It is about a document written by Pentagon officials which is regarding internet as "an enemy weapons system". The article states the plans about controlling the free information on the Internet. Another article on yet another website (which is the Alternative Press Review website) states that Mainstream Media is already controlled in the US and the time has come for the control of Internet, in brief. Having watched Fahrenheit 9/11, Lord of War and many documentaries Chomsky appeared on, I think that the plans are realistic. The good side is that I think it will be in the US that most reaction will occur from the minority of intellectuals in the case that this kind of control becomes noticed and known.
Here are some notes about the news article on BBC:
"The declassified document is called "Information Operations Roadmap". It was obtained by the National Security Archive at George Washington University using the Freedom of Information Act."
[Now thats weird. They could reach this document thanks to the "Freedom of Information Act". Looks that "they" left a loophole. Let me continue with my excerpt:]
"Officials in the Pentagon wrote it in 2003. The Secretary of Defense, Donald Rumsfeld, signed it.
...
Late last year, it emerged that the Pentagon had paid a private company, the Lincoln Group, to plant hundreds of stories in Iraqi newspapers. The stories - all supportive of US policy - were written by military personnel and then placed in Iraqi publications.
And websites that appeared to be information sites on the politics of Africa and the Balkans were found to be run by the Pentagon.
But the true extent of the Pentagon's information operations, how they work, who they're aimed at, and at what point they turn from informing the public to influencing populations, is far from clear.
The roadmap, however, gives a flavour of what the US military is up to - and the grand scale on which it's thinking."
The last sentences clearly talking about the previous operations. I am not surprised of the misleading, generated news that the military makes up. I guess it is all part of shaping the public opinion in their own way.
OK, enough of the boring stuff. I have two papers waiting to be analysed. So, good night to you all :)
The subject is about a news article featured on the BBC website.
It is about a document written by Pentagon officials which is regarding internet as "an enemy weapons system". The article states the plans about controlling the free information on the Internet. Another article on yet another website (which is the Alternative Press Review website) states that Mainstream Media is already controlled in the US and the time has come for the control of Internet, in brief. Having watched Fahrenheit 9/11, Lord of War and many documentaries Chomsky appeared on, I think that the plans are realistic. The good side is that I think it will be in the US that most reaction will occur from the minority of intellectuals in the case that this kind of control becomes noticed and known.
Here are some notes about the news article on BBC:
"The declassified document is called "Information Operations Roadmap". It was obtained by the National Security Archive at George Washington University using the Freedom of Information Act."
[Now thats weird. They could reach this document thanks to the "Freedom of Information Act". Looks that "they" left a loophole. Let me continue with my excerpt:]
"Officials in the Pentagon wrote it in 2003. The Secretary of Defense, Donald Rumsfeld, signed it.
...
Late last year, it emerged that the Pentagon had paid a private company, the Lincoln Group, to plant hundreds of stories in Iraqi newspapers. The stories - all supportive of US policy - were written by military personnel and then placed in Iraqi publications.
And websites that appeared to be information sites on the politics of Africa and the Balkans were found to be run by the Pentagon.
But the true extent of the Pentagon's information operations, how they work, who they're aimed at, and at what point they turn from informing the public to influencing populations, is far from clear.
The roadmap, however, gives a flavour of what the US military is up to - and the grand scale on which it's thinking."
The last sentences clearly talking about the previous operations. I am not surprised of the misleading, generated news that the military makes up. I guess it is all part of shaping the public opinion in their own way.
OK, enough of the boring stuff. I have two papers waiting to be analysed. So, good night to you all :)
Me, Myself, and I
hi again,
since this is one of my first posts, I figured that I might as well talk a bit about myself.
so here it goes:
I am a Computer Science student at the Middle East Technical University in Ankara, Turkey. So that says a lot about my hobbies, I love anything related with computers. But I also like reading, and taking photos (I own a kodak cx7330 which sucks) and some other stuff that I mainly don't have much time to do... since I started to work a month ago at a software company. But thats just how life is, isn't it... You have time and you do not have money, then ironically you start to have money and this time you don't have time to spend it (has to be one of the paradoxes of life). I also like watching movies (like everyone else) and reading blogs, trying to figure how life is everywhere else (just kidding).
Anyway, that's all for today, since all my blogs will reflect my thoughts, you will learn much about me and my way of thinking, so...
take care!
since this is one of my first posts, I figured that I might as well talk a bit about myself.
so here it goes:
I am a Computer Science student at the Middle East Technical University in Ankara, Turkey. So that says a lot about my hobbies, I love anything related with computers. But I also like reading, and taking photos (I own a kodak cx7330 which sucks) and some other stuff that I mainly don't have much time to do... since I started to work a month ago at a software company. But thats just how life is, isn't it... You have time and you do not have money, then ironically you start to have money and this time you don't have time to spend it (has to be one of the paradoxes of life). I also like watching movies (like everyone else) and reading blogs, trying to figure how life is everywhere else (just kidding).
Anyway, that's all for today, since all my blogs will reflect my thoughts, you will learn much about me and my way of thinking, so...
take care!
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
hello world!
Hello there.
This is my first blog, so be kind :) I will try to publish my thoughts here whenever time permits. I have been thinking about keeping a blog but I never had the courage to publish it before, mainly for the fear of not updating it.
I'm not sure why people publish blogs, must be something to do with self indulgunce. We'll see what will come out of this blog together.
So, till my next post, take care...
This is my first blog, so be kind :) I will try to publish my thoughts here whenever time permits. I have been thinking about keeping a blog but I never had the courage to publish it before, mainly for the fear of not updating it.
I'm not sure why people publish blogs, must be something to do with self indulgunce. We'll see what will come out of this blog together.
So, till my next post, take care...
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