Wednesday, April 05, 2006

time, childhood and other things that make you sad

Is it just me or the time is really flowing too fast? I can't believe we are at the fifth month of the year already. The time is much faster when you have work to do, and I do have some I can tell you :)
I miss my childhood so much... Those were the days when you didn't have to do anything but be yourself, be a child that is. You didn't have to pretend you like something everyday or do something you don't like. It is such a pity that children wish to grow up and adults wish they were children like the good old days...

I'm becoming such a melancholic these days. Must be because of spring or something...

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

what i want from life

I always thought that I didn't know what I wanted from my life. I mean I thought that it wasn't clear to me what I should do with my life. Now it's different. I think I do know what I want to be, the thing is, I don't know how to make it real. What I want to do is, I wanna be a writer or some kind of a photographer travelling the world and recording his experiences, either in photos or in writings. I want to see the beauties of the world, beautiful people and nature and man-made architectures. I'm not after much money or something, some money to continue my life is OK. Maybe it's only a dream, maybe I wouldn't like my life if it were something like that. I don't know.

There are two times when I wanted to take a photo and I regret that I didn't take it. The first time was when I saw a little girl eating a sweet corn, I had a great urge to take a photo but my camera wasn't with me. Darn I thought. The second time I wanted so much to take a photo but wasn't able to was when I was in Istanbul, I saw a pretty girl lost in thoughts looking at the display windows of a jeweller. I wanted so much to know what she was thinking. She didn't move for a few minutes, perfect time to take a photo, but I didn't have courage to take a photo of a stranger. Such a shame for me. If I had taken it I was going to show her and ask her permission to use it, anyway I'm such a coward on these things.

that's all for today,

good day everyone.

Friday, March 03, 2006

useless fact # 1.021.432

did you know that Tayfun loves the color turquoise?

:P

Thursday, March 02, 2006

about love

I watched "Tiger and Snow" last week. It's a fun film about love. I really enjoyed it, I really did. The thing is, I don't believe in love :P
I think every person can fall in love with a lot of other persons under right conditions and that makes love nothing more special than other things in life. I'm not saying that I do not fall in love, I'm saying that it is not a special thing for me. When I do fall in love, I'm afraid the feeling doesn't last for long. The happiness while thinking her and the excitement of talking to her doesn't last for long, that's all. I don't know if my feelings will ever change, but this is how it is for now.

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

The Catcher in the Rye

Here's a passage in one of my favorite books.

"The best thing, though, in that museum was that everything always stayed right where it was. Nobody'd move. You could go there a hundred thousand times, and that Eskimo would still be just finished catching those two fish, the birds would still be on their way south, the deers would still be drinking out of that water hole, with their pretty antlers and their pretty, skinny legs, and that squaw with the naked bosom would still be weaving that same blanket. Nobody'd be different. The only thing that would be different would be you. Not that you'd be so much older or anything. It wouldn't be that, exactly. You'd just be different, that's all. You'd have an overcoat on this time. Or the kid that was your partner in line the last time had got scarlet fever and you'd have a new partner. Or you'd have a substitute taking the class, instead of Miss Aigletinger. Or you'd heard your mother and father having a terrific fight in the bathroom. Or you'd just passed by one of those puddles in the street with gasoline rainbows in them. I mean you'd be different in some way—I can't explain what I mean. And even if I could, I'm not sure I'd feel like it."

from "The Catcher in the Rye", J.D. Salinger

tayfun

Saturday, February 25, 2006

the red hunting hat

i wanna buy myself a red hunting hat. like the one Holden Caulfield wears on "the catcher in the rye".
that's all.

tayfun

Friday, February 24, 2006

new things on the page

just added a link to a friend's blog page and a small flickr badge.

tayfun

TGIF

The weekend has come at last :)
i wasn't able to write much to my (new) blog this week cuz we were too busy designing a new project, locked in the meeting room all day. such a pity :)
One of my co-workers was in San Diego, USA last week and he took an unintentional but nice picture from a hotel room. Here it is.

[best viewed large, notice the untidy bed in the reflection]